I would like to preface these poems by saying that Shyamli has one of the finest ears I've come across in quite some time.
1.
They walk amongst us,
though you see them not-
or just barely so.
Feeding and feeling
blindly about,
Stealing kisses under the mistletoe.
They’ve watched you
glisten
in your bath-
they snigger and leer
at your nakedness-
with nothing to hide,
and nowhere
to hide it.
Your porcelain mask
serves its purpose no more.
Even I,
see through the redundant shell-
transparent,
it fails to lie
as it did before.
So, throw away
the silver-cuffs
and scatter
the shattered reflections
around.
They’ve seen your wretched hate
and despair
and now know
there is nothing uglier
to be found.
Your foul fell stench
consumes their living breath.
Your expensive parfums
even more so.
And the scents so lavishly
lathered on….
don’t cleanse,
your sinful compromise.
Now burn that flimsy cloth
to its last bare thread,
it doesn’t disguise your
gaping scars.
E'en the courtroom filled
with cloaked gentlemen
jest,
about your
foolish pride.
and all your attempted altruistic delights.
How far will you run, woman?
In what darkness will you hide?
To conceal
what everyone already knows.
As I said once-
in me you should never confide.
2.
SOUND the bells
and spread the dreary news.
The poet inside me
is now dead.
He either left
early this morn
or is hiding-
lurking in the dark
gallows of my mind.
I’m blind now
to the beautiful shimmers
or the spectrum
that I would so zestfully
chase.
No melody makes me pine
and grieve-
for lovers I so easily would leave.
No stones, no brooks
no carnal pain
leaves me now but in disdain.
So sound the bells
and raise the cry -
the poet inside of me is dead.
No longer is there
that tug inside,
that unexplained and childish hurt.
I’ve grown up!!
I’ve grown old.
Thus the poet inside
me won't wake up.
I fled- left him behind
for something that I thought shone
much more
My beauty,
sexuality.
became the only
things I owned.
I tried my best to be someone else,
now my life itself plays the temptress-
to everything mundane, ugly
and tasteless
it says, come, abuse me!!
abuse me!!
The poet inside
me is dead,
is dead, is dead, is dead, is dead.
3.
Creeping slow-
it will rise.
Escalating every moment
of this sightless
skillful, sinful
Dance.
Spiralling
in and out,
Of the madding crowd.
I stumble
Drunkenly away -
It clings on…
tighter.
Coiling- snake-like,
Leaving me gasping
For a fresh draught of
Sanity.
This time, Jealousy…
Just a
drop
of the poison.
Breeding
hate.
4.
The flight.
You wait for me.
Fluttering among the
Steel birds,
Your dress-
Sun-kissed,
Like the sea breeze
you smell still -
I remember, still.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
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YOU haven't grown up,
YOU haven't grown old,
it is only your porcelain mask,
bound by the laws
of the real/ unreal world
that withers with age.
YOU are not blind,
YOUr vision has only been blurred,
by your
incessant
involuntary
search for the Light,
through your ages.
YOU live on,
and so does your poet,
perpetually,
not
in the dark
gallows of your mind,
not
in your pining heart,
nor
in the Light,
whose shadow you live in.
but within,
in a tiny grain of sand.
you have only to look,
and you will find,
YOUr poet,
YOUr world,
YOU.
it is only a matter of time.
but pray do not make haste,
instead hope,
that you may
find YOUrself,
before your porcelain mask
withers away...
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